Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
Ask me not
about the bastard
who’d made this heart
nothing but a toy
my emotions, his sickest joy
Is it difficult for you
to criticise the person
despite their outer appearance
or even origin?
Yeah, speaking from experiences
I had to leave you
behind me, before 2023
My messages have gone unreplied
You were probably busy
and I chose to be kind
by not accusing you of pure ignorance
Create your own stories
for the sake of your guts and glory
fiction or real
depending how you feel
Social media
You may associate white
with beauty or purity
All I see is what looks empty
like a page or a canvass
for a writer or a painter
You use your bitter past
to ensure their hopes won’t last.
“Be realistic,”
that’s what you always say
making sure your message sticks.
Are you afraid of my face?
I am human too,
just like you.
This face represents me.
This is part of my identity.
How to recognise me,
Want to know what safety is?
It’s not how I should be
locked indoors like some jewelry piece
I’m not and that’s a boring analogy
I’m human
I can never really get rid of you,
can I?
No matter what I do
or how I should often lie
while trying hard not to cry
Go back to the ancient age
if you still see us such potential threats
It’s not that we don’t need people
to sometimes save us from trouble
We’re good as can be
Oh, yes
I mind my own business
I do hang out with the boys
It's all my personal choice
but I'm no prissy princess
If you only knew
what I've been too scared to tell you,
what would you do?
If I were much braver for what's painfully true,
would you say our budding friendship is through?