Ruby - Astari Boedikoentjara
The world outside?
It can be chaotic.
God Does What God Likes.
What we break, God May Fix
or Leave Shattered, just like that.
Every day is basically the same.
We’ve become hamsters in our own spinning wheels.
It’s the familiar, boring game.
We’re going round and round on our heels.
The world’s become a scarier place.
A house, a family
Material things
Everything’s lovely
All the joy they bring
Will they always represent ‘home’?
This ain’t no desperation
I’m just contemplating
weighing my options
seriously considering
Yes, we don’t get to choose
I am sick to death of you
turning her all black and blue
taking over her already tortured soul
making her feel less than whole
I’ve had it with you
You’ll never know
but he misses the old days
when you seemed to love him so,
in your arms, he’d felt safe and protected.
You only see
I think my heart’s been beyond broken
by Israeli Zionists’ atrocities.
I want freedom in Palestine,
so there’ll be no more misery.
No highlights for 2023.
I’m not arrogant
I’ve been adjusted to being alone
solving problems on my own
afraid to be (too) dependent
the moment I start asking
for your assistance
There’s only one way
to restore your peace of mind completely
Yes, you’ve already let him go
He’s never going to run the same sick show
Start making him
All apologies
Set me free
from the same, old miseries
no point in getting angry
but tortured in ‘so-called’ stoicity
Ask me not
about the bastard
who’d made this heart
nothing but a toy
my emotions, his sickest joy
Is it difficult for you
to criticise the person
despite their outer appearance
or even origin?
Yeah, speaking from experiences